what makes a body tremor—crispé comme un extravagant, baudelaire says—is not the rapture of someone suffused with eros; it is, rather, like a kind of sexual shock that can beset a solitary human — there’s an inevitable entropy in humans, a wildness inside us — alive, to all hardships and to all delights
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From studies
07.12.2019
— flowers are borne in whorls nard; lavandula intermedia or dutch lavender genus includes short-lived herbaceous plants; leaf shape is diverse across genus. being branched they are simple in some cultivated species, in others, wild, pinnately toothed pairs opposite each other or multiple pinnate and dissected (can be candied). leaves are covered in fine hairs or indumentum. flowers are borne in whorls, held on spikes rising, erect. may be blue, violet in wild species, occasionally blackish or deep yellowish. calyx is tubular. corolla is also tubular, usually with five lobes; upper lip cleft, and the lower lip with two clefts (bearing oil, for…
07.04.2019
(wearing) obscenely lush lavender scent as a space helmet or perhaps hallow upon landing, in the city every cell; all cytoplasm, nucleus and the breath unsure as to why we’re here recalling or summon; the arctic the arctic the arctic
06.02.19
yes, strawberry river this morning — a phoebe followed a falcon. the birds were on the east side. there were warblers too and many western wood-pewees moving through new electric air joyously hawking
05.17.2019
dreaming he sits at my bedside, with a blue space helmet on, or perhaps hallow. he doesn’t speak; i am very unsure as to why he’s here
05.07.2019 02
dreaming i’m arranging flowers on her breakfast tray, the water turns into gasoline and i cause a huge fire; the flower petals throwing off flames
05.07.2019 01
(edible/eating) “domesticated crop and ‘wild’ plants (called: crop wild relatives) domesticated livestock species and their wild relatives non-harvested species, including soil micro-biota, pollinators non-harvested species in the wider environment” : thinking of (the concept of) wild relatives and how they’re related to you, thinking —
04.14.2019
— sweets this is what i will say; make your words sweet enough for you to eat
03.06.2019
— sea berries is the weight of violence coming home, into long afternoons (of being) exiled among them talking, as words didn’t sound their full meaning i am always cautiously sifting the current beneath objects of family life
03.01.2019
— sea berries since things are not as sweet as you thought they would be you teach your taste the embrace of bitterness and your fingers to pick each berry cautiously
