From June, 2024

06.29.2024

be a lotus: you are awakened by a word said out loud to you, it is not “ice” though it is somehow relating to “ice” or it relates to “writing” or it relates to “being.” you can’t seems to explain this better than “one word” is all the practice you need, though you cannot bring this word with you back into daily consciousness then you see a lotus in three layers, divided down the middle, like a section cut: one, stem. two, lower petals. three, upper middle or seed head. so, you ask; “what do you want?” and it answers…

06.20.2024

amoeba: you are a strange amoeba. as amoeba, there is no scale, no difference in large or small to you. you see things you forget as fast as they appear though you try to hold on to their images. you see nuclear blasts repeatedly; you see nuclear blasts repeatedly; you see creosote, your favourite chihuahua plant being. you see the tiny fur like hairs on its seed pods, they open in blinding sunlight. they open in radiant light, then grandma’s voice is descending on you as fall out saying; keep trying, persist, persist 

06.17.2024

girl:you see a girl about three years of age. cowboy boots and curly ponytail. her skirt crawls up, her pantyhose has holes at the knees, knees are dirty, dirty pantyhose from playing in dirt, dirt streaks between her fingers. sticky. she comes over handing you; a stone. “what is this?” you ask her, aware your accent might drive her away – even the shortest sentences reveals it. “a girl she says.” “oh i see, does she have a name?”. “yes, girl.” she replies. runs off leaving you the girlstone. you lay it down next to the book and read on.…

06.17.2024

“(…) delayed culture shock has many different effects, time spans, and degrees of severity. many people are impaired* by its presence and do not recognise what is bothering them” *compromised, damaged or weakened

06.15.2024

“one day, i stood in front of my family i said i wouldn’t sleep one more night at homei said i had to leave and find myself find my self how?i will go in to exileexile where?i will go cross the deserti want to go forward“

06.12.2024

thin trace of blood when bear moves. a thin blood trace shines in the morning sun as bear leaves denshe says: this is the month of imploding. i’m only breathing through words now— less and less air — loosing language one word after the other. these are among the lost words: familiefest søndagsstel udsigttårn hjemvendt nedfalden roemark sjippetov hovedskald sukkerskål gyngehest samlebånd havørn hættemåge pinsesol dansemyg bortfaldet nedtagen hundeangst lillebælt nordhavn each breath require b o g s t a v e r i n g this is the month of å n d e n ø d 

06.09.2024

she says: “water, tell me more of the water”. filling up the great lake, make it breathe. that bear river makes it breathe. tell me the names bear river speaks, coming down to fill the salt lake, mixing freshwater with its brine (mud flats, south bay, north bay, wellsville cone, cottonwood creek, soda springs, muddy creek, cokeville, twin creek, new canyon, witney canyon, needles creek, mill creek, hayden peak) –bear river, as the only one never reaching the sea, it makes a circular move (crossing state borders) through time, coming down to pass it’s own latitude and

06.07.2024

ah the sex is juvenile, at juvenile times. his sleep is juvenile, afterwards juvenile boy stays in bed.while bear hurries up. bear trots away. ah she’s late, she wants to not be late, but is too heavy to move any faster.she makes a sound deep inside her furry belly, comes out as a nervous g r r h h g r r r h–in the landscape of words you want to have many maps, as each seems to mean so many things: “i am unaware of the name of the literary device you use of looping thoughts in a narrative,…